I GONNA QUIT
Reena was all set to
swallow the entire bottle of tranquilizers not to just drown her sorrows, but
to END her life. She took out her high-end cell phone and scrolled down through
her contacts in search of any possible guidance. As it was already 2:00 a.m.
she was hesitant to seek out help at this late hour. She stood near the window
and gaped at the electrified snaky road which seemed to beckon her towards heaven – the ultimate peace. But, on second thought, it seemed as hollow and
dark like her life. She dragged herself inside her master bed-room, slid open
the wardrobe door and took out a wooden framed photograph, which was taken
about 20 years ago. It was a memorable
sight of her family, where her dad was giving her a piggyback ride. She
caressed the photo lightly and breathed a morose sigh. Crystal tears rolled
down her eyes and fell onto the photo
frame. She wiped off the droplet that had blurred out her dad’s picture and
started wondering, who would wipe her dad’s tears away after her death. Still,
her thoughts selfishly and stubbornly remained in favor of her decision to
commit suicide.
She opened up her personal journal and could
only scribble “To my dear Dad and Mom…” She stuck off the sentence and turned
over the pages. She started retrospection down her memory lane.
Reena was a dainty,
cheerful and over-achieving girl in high school and right through college as
well. She had consistently topped the charts in academics and also in sports,
dance, singing, painting and
everything she took part in. She was envied and
admired by most of her class mates. In-fact, she got recruited by one of the top
most Multi National Company soon after her graduation. Whether it was taking
risks or facing failures, she had always been very brave and confident. But is
it the same braveness leading her to commit suicide today?
“Many people commit suicide every day because of these issues. I know you were born and brought up with a silver spoon. No love deprivation, your parents are the best in the world. You draw a five digit salary per month. What the heck is your problem?”
She was still not able to find an answer, a convincing one to commit suicide.
A voice from within cried out to Reena, “OMG!! Are you one amongst those crazy people who kill themselves just to find out about life after death? For heaven’s sake Reena stop brooding over the matter again. Drop off the notion at once!”
She stood in front of her replica in the mirror and observed her egg-shaped
eye, which had bulged out due to the incessant tears. Her soul started finding answers for her suicidal mind set -
“Am I delved deep into some indebtedness?
Are my parents too nagging and interfering or simply indifferent towards me?
Don’t I have any friends?
Am I un-employed?”
She couldn't answer.“Many people commit suicide every day because of these issues. I know you were born and brought up with a silver spoon. No love deprivation, your parents are the best in the world. You draw a five digit salary per month. What the heck is your problem?”
She was still not able to find an answer, a convincing one to commit suicide.
A voice from within cried out to Reena, “OMG!! Are you one amongst those crazy people who kill themselves just to find out about life after death? For heaven’s sake Reena stop brooding over the matter again. Drop off the notion at once!”
The cuddly teddy bear that she used to play with during her good times, wisely
advised “Life is not about savoring the flavor of happiness. The real challenge
lies in facing pain and overcoming it.
You will get over this pain or at-least time will heal up your pain.”
But the
pain she felt at that moment was unbearable. Just like a dam with a
maximum capacity of 94 metric tons can’t accommodate a litre more than its
capacity, she too had reached her limit .Had a chance, her bed would have
executed her mercifully by seeing the way she suffered for the past few days.
Every night, the bed was drenched with her tears and it had been the sole witness
to her sleepless, sobbing nights.
She
placed the photo frame back in the wardrobe with utmost care and poured the
tablets in one hand and picked up a glass of water in another hand. Her hands
started trembling as soon as she held the pills and almost suddenly, her cuddly
teddy bear that had been her bed-partner always through her crests and troughs
jumped off from bed and rolled towards her feet. The oblong oval shaped mirror
incorporated on the wall swung like a pendulum. The dogs in the road were restless
and howling. Was the teddy bear clinging to her feet and trying to convince her
not to die? Is the mirror trying to express, “DON’T QUIT” by swinging left to
right!
S*M*A*S*H*!!!
The
mirror fell off the wall and shattered into pieces. “Reena Stop Imagining!!”
screamed her soul.
It’s an EARTH QUAKE!!!
She dropped the glass and tablets as soon as
she realized the situation and rushed out of the house to get to safety. Her
entire plan was abandoned within a fraction of a second.
(Soul: Hey Reena, I never knew you are a good athlete!
Reena: What?
Soul: Yup, no one can run this fast. “100m/0.75 seconds”, you broke a World record
Reena: Shut up!!!
Soul: Yup, no one can run this fast. “100m/0.75 seconds”, you broke a World record
Reena: Shut up!!!
Soul: You wanna die. Then why did you rush to save your life?
Reena: Yes I wanna quit!! But. . .
Soul: But, your sub-conscious mind wants you to live. Behind every beautiful thing, there’s some kind of pain. Every cloud has a silver lining and this painful cloud of separation will pass away too making way for
a bright morning. You will live happily Reena!!! Just keep the patience.
Reena : (Silence))
Reena: Yes I wanna quit!! But. . .
Soul: But, your sub-conscious mind wants you to live. Behind every beautiful thing, there’s some kind of pain. Every cloud has a silver lining and this painful cloud of separation will pass away too making way for
a bright morning. You will live happily Reena!!! Just keep the patience.
Reena : (Silence))
Reena is basically compassionate hence she even avoids playing violent video games. But today, right in front of her eyes the buildings and vehicles that served many peoples’ hopes and dreams were transformed to heap of debris and scrap. As it was 3:00 a.m, no one was around to have witnessed the tragedy. It was the weirdest nightmare anybody could have ever imagined. But the irony was that, the people who slept with a hope of waking up for better tomorrow are no more. But Reena who kept awake whole night to end her life had escaped the earthquake and was alive!
BUT!!!... Before she
could recover from the shock, her thoughts flashed one Name!!!’
“What happened to him? Is he safe? The earthquake must not have impacted the city he lives in!” her mind reasoned. However, her imagination got the better of her and forced her to rush to a nearby street in search of STD booths. She could find none. Her heart was racing. All she wanted was to hear his voice. While walking around, with that heavy heart, she stumbled upon a person, with a mobile in his hands. She pleaded him to let her make a call.
Reena dialed his number without any hesitation. (The only number which she has dialed a minimum of thirty times a day and her password before and still...)
“What happened to him? Is he safe? The earthquake must not have impacted the city he lives in!” her mind reasoned. However, her imagination got the better of her and forced her to rush to a nearby street in search of STD booths. She could find none. Her heart was racing. All she wanted was to hear his voice. While walking around, with that heavy heart, she stumbled upon a person, with a mobile in his hands. She pleaded him to let her make a call.
Reena dialed his number without any hesitation. (The only number which she has dialed a minimum of thirty times a day and her password before and still...)
The line got connected to after many
attempts!!!
“Hello” - a firm voice replied at the
other end from Gurgaon.
“…..Ha…Ha..H. .E…L…L….OOOO…. GaGa….Gautham.
.”
Gautham identified her voice immediately.
“What
the hell Reena?” The voice at the other end yelled.
She
ignored the arrogance
of his and said softly, “Gautham…”
“What
more do you need from me? Wanna torture me? I’m busy at the moment so please
keep it short.”
“Gautham, Are you safe?” she asked, weeping,
her voice full of concern.
“Do you think if you call me again and again
and act as if you were my well-wisher, I would come back? Never ever,” Gautham
screeched at the top of his voice.
She replied to him in a low voice, “You have changed a lot. But still, I love you so much Gautham. I can’t live without you!”
She replied to him in a low voice, “You have changed a lot. But still, I love you so much Gautham. I can’t live without you!”
“I didn’t change.
It’s you, who caused me to behave this way. Please don’t call and bug me
again.” He paused for a
second and continued, “It is all over
between us.”
He broke off the call and resumed his work.
Strangely, Reena
wasn’t hurt listening to his tone. She
somehow had gotten used to it. She returned the phone to its owner and strolled
away. She sat on the street and sobbed. Not because
Gautham had hurt her,
But…
But...
But...
Reena wept inconsolably after having saved herself from the Earthquake!!!…
Morning 6:00 A.M.
Journalists, firemen, doctors and many other volunteers poured in to save lives of people trapped within the ruins of their homes.But...
But...
Reena wept inconsolably after having saved herself from the Earthquake!!!…
Morning 6:00 A.M.
The news reported,
“Magnitude 6.5 earthquake shakes Bangalore”
A strong earthquake of magnitude 6.5 on the Richter scale shook the Bangalore region of the state of Karnataka, India. This earthquake took a tremendous toll of human life - over 100 people were killed,another 1,000 injured and over one thousand local residents rendered homeless. Electronic City, Embassy Golf Link, FTP and five other places suffered extensive damage.
Reena’s ears paid
attention to the 3 letter word “FTP”-
The reason behind her 3 knots...
The reason behind her 3 knots...
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Thanks Anitha.
ReplyDeleteI want the Climax of this story to change/save atleast few people's life.
And if it does, that's the purpose of my life :P
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ReplyDeleteAdiye serial parkatha nu sonna, kekuriya
ReplyDeleteGood starting..This make me more expectation for part two
ReplyDeletewhat is this blog about?
ReplyDeleteSuper.Hope its Imaginary or some forward mail or book story
ReplyDelete@ Deepa,
ReplyDeleteI love writing short stories. So Started with my first E-book/Blog Book Story.
@ Sandya,
Thanks sandya,
No its not forward mail or Book Story. My own imaginary story :) :)
Great tag line “Life is to Live”. Really superb deep’s… I’m able to understand some meaning from the picture u drawn there… u want to be a bird, u want to live the life happily, u want to be as fresh as the morning snow budded flower etc
ReplyDeleteLooks like you are not a writer you are sculpture .In the life to live image give a fourth dimension. Walking and standing image in the picture very much meaning full. I have a doubt life=live or life=alive…. with this image, I able to guess what the writer going to give in the climax. Still makes me more intention, what reason will be there behind the suicide. What ever we guess the author gave a signal that all are not. Some think else more than this? Teddy bear talking to her…It is really nice. It shows her childishness. Shower with tears. Egg shaped eyes. These are nicely handled by the author to feel her pain by the readers. Still her life she didn’t face any failure first time she face a failure put the heroine in to this decision. Is it so? More thinks to write. let me wait to see the next release.
ReplyDelete@ Gopi,
ReplyDeleteThanks Gopi :) :) you are close to the meaning of the cover book.
But the exact meaning of the picture says/represent White bird.White for peace. I want peace in everybodys life.:)
Really superb dear.In waiting for happy ending
ReplyDeleteHey,
ReplyDeleteWell done, It was pretty interesting one. Here is my thought. First it was like reading shenoy's "Life is what u make it". I thought Reena is suffering from depression and decide to commit suicide. Then the teddy bear rolled back on to her foot, which i thought it was like a fantasy story. Ted comes in to life to stop her just something like "TED" movie. Then the mirror falls down and say don't quit which i assume may be a spirit stopping her, some kind of horror story. Then it comes to Earthquake, Gautam and their marriage.
I want to know what happened to Reena's life before and after broke up. Waiting for the book.
Thanks Hari..
DeleteIT was altogether a big comment :) thanks a lot for taking time in posting the feedback :)
hmmm A good prologue i would say... So when is the Film on Touch of Mist gonna be directed and released by you... ? :) Yengalukku yellam yedhavadhu character kudu Deepi... :)
ReplyDeleteThanks Hari.. Definetely you will be the hero :) in case, if the novel is made as a movie :P
ReplyDeleteDone with the first.
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