Thursday, June 13, 2024

Whispers of Longings

Nikitha stood on the balcony, the night sky casting a gentle glow on her face. She sipped her coffee, relishing the peaceful moments of the evening. 

A familiar warmth enveloped her from behind, and she knew it was Arjun, returning from a long day at work.

“Good evening, babe” his voice was softer than usual, filled with enthuisam. 

She leaned back, a small smile gracing her lips. “Welcome back, Arjun. What's got you in such a good mood?”

“Maybe it is. Or maybe, it's the joy of returning home to you, my love"

"Oh, Mr. Romantic, you are in an extra good mood today," she remarked, her curiosity rasing by his sudden change. 

As the words left her lips, her mind suddenly realized the underlying motive behind his unusual charming behavior. 

With a playful smile, she continued, "Hey wait, are you seeking my approval for a Goa trip with your friends this weekend?"

“Who needs Goa when I have you right here.” he said as he gazed deeply into her eyes.

“Hmm, you seem to have something on your mind.”

His eyes sparkled as he leaned in for a kiss on her forehead. 

“Guess,” he whispered.

She paused, a flicker of hope in her eyes. “Hey, wait… any good news about our discussion on having a baby?”

The sparkle in his eyes dimmed and he stepped back, his expression turning serious. “Nikitha…”

"We have talked a lot about this. Why do you bring this up every single time?”

“I know we discussed it before marriage,” her voice carried a tinge of fatigue. “But my feelings have changed. It's something I wanted now.”

His tone softened, but his desicion remained firm. “But my feelings haven't changed. I'm not ready for that step, not now, ever.”

“Arjun…” she began, her heart heavy with unspoken longing.

“Nikitha, you agreed to my decision of not having a baby before, and that's the reason we are married,” His words carried a weight of regret. "Why do you always do this and make me feel guilty?”

She took a deep breath and confessed,“I know we talked about this before we got married, and back then, I was on board with you. But these past five years... they have changed me," 

She hesitated, choosing her words carefully. "People change, evolve. We are not the same people we were back then, and we can't ignore that. Decisions we made in the past can be reconsidered if they are not good for both of us." 

She explained, her eyes meeting his, silently pleading for understanding in this new chapter of their journey together.

But he held his ground. “But I don’t change. I thought you understood that.”

Her eyes glistened with unshed tears. “Just imagine a baby for us, Arjun. How beautiful our life could be.”

Her heart ached, but she knew she had to accept his decision. 

"We have discussed it enough. I can’t give you what you want. I’m sorry,” He snapped, his words laced with frustration, stroming abruptly towards the bedroom, and with a forceful push, he slammed it shut.

Nikitha's heart weighed heavy. Just then, her phone rang. Her heart sank as she saw her mother-in-law's name flash on the screen. 

She took a deep breath and answered the call, bracing herself for the inevitable question about any good news regarding a baby.

"Hello, Aunty," Nikitha greeted her with forced enthusiam. 

Her mother-in-law's voice carried an expectation. "Nikitha, any good news? Have you been to the doctor?"

Her throat tightened. "Not yet, Aunty. We are taking things one step at a time."

There was a brief pause on the other end, followed by a sigh. "That's an expected answer. Don't delay too much. We all are waiting for good news."

As Nikitha hung up, a wave of emotions washed over her. She couldn't help but think about the societal pressure on women to have children and how often they were blamed for not fulfilling this expectation.

Friday, May 31, 2024

A hidden Letter from a Women's Heart

Dear Friend,

Love is a beautiful emotion that has the power to bring immense happiness. When she first fell in love with him, her heart was filled with dreams of a shared future, support, and mutual respect. However, over time, those dreams began to fade, replaced by a harsh reality she never anticipated.

In the beginning, she believed in the strength of their love, thinking it could overcome any obstacle. But as days turned into months and then years, she realized that love alone is not enough. When a man refuses to take responsibility for his actions, when he insults, mocks, and belittles her, the foundation of that love starts to crumble. The person she once adored became a source of pain, someone who inflicted wounds not just on her body, but on her soul.

It's heartbreaking to admit, but she has been beaten and kicked in front of their child. The physical pain was unbearable, but the emotional scars cut even deeper. She stayed silent, hiding the bruises and the tears, because she wanted to protect their child. She thought enduring the abuse was a way to shield them from the harsh reality of a broken home. She convinced herself that staying was the lesser evil, that sacrificing her own well-being was worth it if it meant their child would have both parents.

But the truth is, staying in such a toxic environment does more harm than good. Children are perceptive; they see and feel the tension, the anger, and the fear. By staying, she was teaching her child that such behavior is acceptable, that it's okay to hurt and be hurt. This realization was devastating, but it was also the first step towards reclaiming her strength.

She kept her mouth shut about the abuse, hoping that her silence would maintain the facade of a perfect family. The world saw him as a good man, oblivious to the nightmare that unfolded behind closed doors. Her silence gave him power, allowing him to continue his facade while she withered away in the shadows.

To any woman reading this, enduring similar pain, she wants you to know that you are not alone. Your love is not a curse, and your silence is not a testament to your strength.  Your life, your happiness, and your well-being matter. You deserve to be loved and respected, not just by others, but by yourself.

It's not always possible to leave, especially when children are involved. However, remember that you have the right to live a life free from abuse and fear. 

Try to silently stay away from them whenever possible. These people won't understand at all and will continue to hurt you, but you have the power to fight silently and stay strong. I know he crushed you and trashed your trust, but it's important to pick yourself up and move on. Even in silence, you can reclaim your strength and protect your heart. Remember, your resilience and quiet determination are powerful tools to rebuild your life.

Love should lift you up, not tear you down. It's time to rewrite the narrative, to break the silence, and to reclaim your life. You deserve to be cherished, respected, and safe.

With all her heart,

A Woman Who Silently Fights the Battle